DAAMINI
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Pune
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India
Monday 25 March 2013
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Ohmigosh, What Have I Done?
The drive home was slow: the flat tyre made it seem to last a
lifetime. Even my usual game of mimicking other drivers didn’t help. A lone
packet of vegetable lasagne stared back at me from the middle shelf of my
otherwise bare freezer. I kicked off my shoes and tried to relax, but the
mistakes I’d made earlier at work kept sneaking into my thoughts. The microwave
pinged. At the same time, the phone rang. I was in two minds: answer it, or let
the machine kick in? Years later I came to regard that moment as the single
biggest mistake I ever made, one that I would regret for the rest of my life.
To hell with it, the microwave has
already stopped by itself, so I picked up the phone. It was my wife
calling from across the country where she went for speaking at a seminar
on, of all things, women's rights! What women's rights? They have
all the rights and we have hardly any and we are always wrong. She missed
the flight and will come the next morning, late in the morning, closer to lunch
time. I will be expected to meet her at the airport. It won’t
matter to her that my twelve noon meeting with my client is important to
me. If I don’t go to fetch her I will immediately be branded an
inconsiderate hubby, all romance gone within a mere eight months. Huh,
some female logic. Why can’t women think like men? God bless Prof
'Iggins. Actually she said "I am coming tomorrow morning, landing at
11-10." Already irritated, I shot back "You get home on your
own, I am meeting a client at noon." She disconnected without saying
anything, must have slammed the phone down, so I imagined.
I immediately regretted my curt
reply. She is also under pressure at work, taking time out for this
seminar had meant extra work and late nights for her over the past week or
so. I kept telling her that speaking at the seminar is not worth all the
stress she was undergoing and that she better do her normal work which was
stressful anyway. She often complained that her design work at the firm
of architects is like working in a pressure cooker. Once I joked that she
can only think of a pressure cooker as an example as she has nothing better to
do than cook. She flared up and did not speak to me for three days.
For the life of it I just could not understand why she had to take offence at
such an innocent and innocuous remark. After
all, she uses the pressure cooker and grumbles about it. My woman had
always been beyond my comprehension. She is so logical at work and so
illogical at home. It seemed as though she has a Jekyll and Hyde split
personality.
Where has all the romance gone, I asked
myself often. She always had the time to meet me at least once a week,
never said anything about tension or pressure of work at her office.
Would always rendezvous at seven pm looking like an angel and beaming with
joy. We were so happy wooing each other during the thirty three months of
courtship we enjoyed. It was sheer bliss and ecstasy. I had no
reason whatsoever to even dream that she will change so much and care little
for whatever I tell her or ask her. It seemed that we are already living
in two different worlds.
I well remember the day I ran into her,
literally. My car went for servicing and it was one of those rare
occasions when I chose to take a bus to get to the service station to collect
my car. I could have taken a cab, but ... but... I was running to
the bus as people were already boarding and it will leave if I don't make
it. I bumped into her and the shaggy dog she was holding in her arms fell
onto the footpath and started yapping in pain. She almost fell
herself. But she straightened herself, picked up the pup, glared at me
and started moving. She did not even say a word to me. I felt so guilty.
The bus started off. So, I followed her, apologised profusely and asked
her what she was doing with a shaggy dog. When she came out of her office
to go to a construction site she found this poor thing yelping and limping with
a hurt hind paw. Though it presented a repulsive sight, she picked it up
and was going to a vet when I bumped into her. Touched by her compassion
for the poor thing, I offered to drop her. I flagged down a taxi,
dropped her at the vet's clinic and went on to collect my car.
Pretty girl, smartly dressed, an
architect to boot and so compassionate and considerate as to take a dirty
filthy street dog, even soiling her spotlessly clean dress. That was
too much to not think about her over and over during the night. Her
pretty face and elegant demeanour kept haunting me, yes, haunting me through a
night when I could only sleep intermittently. The next morning I walked
into her office and found out where her place of work was. It was
a cubbyhole which was hardly bigger than the huge drawing board she was
working on. I stood behind her for a few moments and gave a half hearted
little cough. She spun round and on seeing me her mouth broke into a
wide, happy grin. I apologised for what happened the previous day, which
was just an excuse to meet her. She was clever enough, or may be
perceptive enough to divine my real intentions. I admired her sense of
compassion for the poor and downtrodden, like hurt pups. She apologised
for not thanking me enough. I suggested that we meet for coffee when the
office closes. She was willing to jump at the offer of having coffee at
the nearby Barista outlet. How could she not, considering that the he-man
standing in front of her - that's me - had drop dead looks, even if I say so!
I had and still have a very high opinion of my own looks. I guessed
or assumed that her knees must already be turning watery. Still, she
made a valiant effort and said that she had to work late, as she had already
lost some time the previous evening and agreed to meet me only at seven thirty
that evening. That was the beginning.
Our weekly trysts were the ideal any couple in love can
hope for. It was not coffee at expensive places all the time. At
times it was just a walk in the park holding hands and buying chocobars or spun
sugar candy. That would be the occasion which would put us both into
splits of laughter since we just could not master the art of eating the huge
big stuff without it sticking all over our lips and noses in funny shaped bits.
We would look at each other and laugh. We would give names to the
shapes of the bits of the pink coloured candy and laugh again.
Her mother never considered my salesman's job of selling
computer hardware and software as a secure profession unlike her daughter's. My parents had not much to offer as a backup
for her daughter's continued security with me in times of bad sales seasons.
After we had been seeing each other for six or seven months her mother
sensed that her daughter
was having late evenings or rather much "later" evenings than normal
late working. She discovered an almost constant pattern to it and
confronted her daughter. Mothers are women who had done everything that
the daughter was doing now. It is really a repeat of what she did in her
youth, but still she was not willing to accept such innocent and normal behaviour
in her daughter now. The mother battered away at the daughter until all
her defences broke down and she was reduced to a tearful and helpless little
baby and admitted to seeing me regularly.
Then all hell broke
loose. She forbade her daughter from
seeing me. My economic and social status
was not up to her expectation. Actually
mine would easily match that of her family.
Her father had a good job with an engineering firm, while the mother
satisfied herself with being a homemaker.
But adding the incomes of father and daughter put me at a very bad
disadvantage, financially speaking. We
were reduced to seeing each other at the gate of her office for a few precious
minutes. Sometimes I would ride her home
in my car and steal a few more minutes with her before dropping her off at her
bus stop, which was a good seven minute walk away from her home. She had a scooter, but some time ago she fell
off and bruised herself badly and that was the end of her scooter rides as her
mother forbade it. I asked her if she
cannot make her father overrule her mother’s decisions. She smiled and said that her father will
never hear the end of it if he said anything contrary to her mother’s
decisions. They were ironclad. Unchangeable.
Immutable. Only her mother’s writ
runs in her house. She, her father and
her younger brother had no say in anything.
Finally, one day, the
inevitable happened. Her brother,
returning rather late from his game of cricket happened to see her getting off
my car. Gleefully he gave the
electrifying news to his mother and the daughter of the house was
unceremoniously and arbitrarily sentenced to simple imprisonment at home for a
day. After the one day hiatus things got
back to normal with meetings at the office gates, rides in the car to beat the
bus timings and quick trysts among the bushes in the park.
With no notice
whatsoever, one fine day she told me that she cannot play this game of hide and
seek anymore. She cannot live a lie over
extended periods of time and that she was feeling guilty cheating her parents. And she did not see any point in continuing if
they cannot marry with her parents’ approval.
No more meetings, no phone calls and no nothing. The end.
Finale.
The best I could do was
to get into a huge sulk. With great
difficulty I managed not to hit the bottle.
I could not concentrate on my work.
My commissions were slipping.
While there was no immediate danger of losing my job, my star rating
among my co-workers took a beating.
After a month I told myself “if not you, someone else” and started
looking at other girls. But in my warped
imagination none came up to anywhere near her.
She became the ultimate standard against which I started comparing every
girl I wanted to date. None came up to
match her. In my imagination she became
the incomparable angel. That led to
disappointment after disappointment.
Where was my life headed? I did
not know. I did not care either. I descended into wallowing in self pity. My shoes were not gleaming any more. I did not care even when the crease on my
trousers ceased to be razor sharp. All
those things which were so important to impress her seemed inconsequential
now. Finally I decide that I cannot keep
descending into depths of despair and decided to get back to concentrating on my
job. Once that decision was taken it was
surprisingly easy to get back to normal.
Six and a half months went by.
Things were back to normal, except that there was no girl in my arid,
barren life.
When I returned from a
sales call our receptionist gave me a slip of paper with a phone number on
it. My eyes popped up when I recognised
the well known number. She responded to
my call with eagerness spilling over in her voice. It was obvious to me that she was waiting for
my call. She said she had made a choice
between her past and her future. I am her
future and she chose to ignore her parents, who are her past. It was a pleasant surprise but a bit
disturbing. Is it right for her to
almost disown her parents for all practical purposes? What if the parents give trouble saying that
I had forcibly taken away their precious daughter? What if they report to the police? The police will harass us even though we are
both consenting adults. I had questions
and questions with no satisfying answers.
She kept on suggesting that we make our life together. No wedding to save costs. Moreover, how can there be a wedding without
the parents giving away their daughter?
So, we settled for a living-in
partnership. We both spent money renting
a one bedroom flat and furnishing it and stocking it with food. One fine evening she got into my car when she
finished work and we drove home. On
reaching our new home she ceremoniously boiled milk, vermicelli and sugar and
we both ate it wishing ourselves a sweet beginning and long long sweet
togetherness. Then she called her
parents and broke the news. Initial
hiccups over we were supremely happy, she playing the perfect wife and I trying
to play the near ideal husband. Or so I
thought.
Some seven weeks after
our life together the usual and natural minor differences started cropping
up. Nothing serious. She objected to my leaving a wet towel on the
bed. I did hear that wives like to play
mother to their husbands. It was okay to
be ticked off by my mother when I left wet clothes and things all over the
house, but a loving and loved wife, an almost-wife doing it? It annoyed me but I took it in my
stride. Then she worked longer and
longer evenings at work. Naturally, she
has work and she is good at it. No,
actually she is one of those who strive for near perfection. I am proud of it, though I missed her sorely
at home in the early evenings. I was
told of long suffering wives who wait eagerly at home awaiting the arrival of
their hard working hubbies, generally with a cup of hot, welcoming cup of
tea. It seems the roles were reversed in
our case. I can’t possibly wait at her
office indefinitely to pick her up on my way home, as I used to do in the early
weeks of our life together. But I waited
at home impatiently and eagerly for her, though not with a cup of steaming hot
tea, the lazy goat I am when it came to doing any housework.
Things became more and
more trying and difficult progressively as the days rolled by. I could never fault her as work is important
for her. My job did not involve working
late hours and I am not the type to hit the bottle. In fact, I waited for her arrival so that we
could share a drink and relax before she busied herself in making some dinner. I never could figure out how she could
produce such wonderful meals in such short times. I was never sure when I was disappointed or
when I was annoyed with her late working.
Has the romance gone out of our togetherness so quickly?
Now this. Did she really slam the phone down in
anger? I will get to know only when we
cosy up at home after work. It was past
six thirty and already dark when I got home after an especially unlucky day
when I could not close even a single sale.
I got in with my own key.
Evidently another long day for her at work even after returning from an
out of town assignment. May be a long
day because of missing work when she was out of town. What’s new about her late working! Immediately I stepped in I could sense something
amiss. Call it sixth sense or
whatever. There was something eerie
about the place. Wild imagination, ha! Everything was in its usual place except for
an envelope on our bed.
My dearest,
I get the feeling that
you do not really understand me anymore.
You are just tolerating me. My
work, including going out of town for a cause I believe in is important for
me. The enthusiasm on seeing me home
after a long tiring day is gone from your face.
Your show of interest in what I did during the day is just that, a
show. Your accounts of what you did and
what you achieved during the day have lost the verve. I believe it is time to accept the fact that
the romance has gone out of our relationship.
Thank you for the good times we
had. Goodbye.
There was no signature.
No crosses. No circles. That’s it.
The irreversibly concluding act.
How unpredictable can she be!
DVR Rao (Nani)
Pune
